Major Mum Guilt. 

Since having Archie I have only ever left him once over night and that was when I was admitted to hospital when he was a year old. Apart from this time I have never had a night away from him. 

I mean don’t get me wrong I have been out of an evening and had my parents babysit but never actually left him for longer than 11 hours at once. 

On Friday I am off to London, 2 and a half hours away from my hometown, for an overnight stay on a friends hen do. 

I know whilst I’m there I am going to have an amazing time. We’re off to Epsom races, then for a lovely dinner and drinks and the following day we’re having a spa day. 

I can’t wait to just be me again. Be someone other than Mummy. Let my hair down, have a few drinks and have lots of fun with my friends. But I just can’t shake the feeling of guilt. 

Should I be spending all this money on myself when surely there’s something Archie needs?

Am I depriving Archie from my attention working the day before I go, away for 2 days then working the day after I get back? 

Will he notice that I’m not around?

What if he needs me? 

Will he be ok without me? 

What if something happens? 

I know all these questions are irrational and Archie will be perfectly fine. He’s with his Daddy. Who he loves and adores. They will be having a ton of fun he won’t even notice I’m not there. 

I very rarely spend money on myself other than on essentials. I rarely treat myself so why do I feel so guilty. 

I think as mums we get judged whatever we do. If we go out often we’re judged. If we never go out we’re judged. 

It’ll be lovely for callum to spend quality time with Archie without me there and I can’t wait to hear about the adventures they get up I whilst I’m away. 

I’m going to try and enjoy this weekend away and use it as a learning curve. 

If any of you have suffered with major mum guilt then please give me tips on how to cope with it. 

Love Tilly & Archie xx

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30 Things to do before I’m 30.

Now that I am 25. I have decided to put a list together of 30 things I want to do before I’m 30. 

I have seen many of these around and we all know that I am a sucker for a list. So here is my list of thing I would like to achieve before I’m 30. 

Some of the things on this list aren’t in my hands to complete but the majority are things that I can make happen. 

  1. Get engaged 
  2. Dye my hair blonde again (and stay blonde)
  3. Get married
  4. Complete our family with more children 
  5. Extend our family home 
  6. Start my own business 
  7. Take a cross country road trip 
  8. Skydive 
  9. Visit a country both Callum and I  never been to 
  10. Plant a tree 
  11. Take a family holiday abroad 
  12. Go to a music festival 
  13. Have a boob job 
  14. Spend more time with family
  15. Have my own career 
  16. Learn to cook (better)
  17. Start a retirement fund 
  18. Start vlogging our family life 
  19. Learn a new language 
  20. Get a tattoo 
  21. Visit New York 
  22. More date nights or time focused on our relationship 
  23. Take Archie to Disneyworld Orlando Florida
  24. Focus on my family 
  25. Have a girls get away
  26. Learn to love myself 
  27. Stop holding grudges 
  28. Completely decorate our house 
  29. Take care of my body 
  30. And finally make a list of 40 things to do before I turn 40. 

I can’t wait to see how many of these I get to cross off this list within the next 5 years or what the following years bring our family. 

Love Tilly & Archie xx