So the saying “you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone” pretty much sums up my life at the moment.
A few months ago, myself and my best friend had a falling out over something be known. Neither of us know what happened, but something definitely changed.
After not speaking for a few months, we bumped into each other at a mutual friends house. Awkward doesn’t even begin to describe the atmosphere that day. That was the day we both realised something had changed in our friendship. Yes we hadn’t spoken in months, but completely blanking each other in person had never happened during our lifelong friendship.
A week ago chummy moved half way across the world to New Zealand, stopping in Thailand for a cheeky holiday en route. I can’t even begin to describe how much I wish, hope, prayed we would sort everything out before the big move. But we both left it too late. Whether we were waiting for the other to make the first move or whether it was pure stubbornness, I’ll never know.
Now we’re building bridges through the internet rather than in person. Yes I LOVE that we’re beginning to sort this out, but there was no reason not to sort it out when she lived 5 minutes down the road, not 11,000 miles away.
I’ll always have regrets that we never patched things up back in England and we let our stubbornness get in the way of our friendship. But what matters now is the future.
Don’t leave things until they are too late. If there’s a problem, sort it out because you never know what might happen tomorrow. Tell those you love that you love them. Live every day like it’s you last.
I love you chummy and I’ve bloody well missed you. We have a lot of catching up to do.
Love Tilly xx